总以为你一般难懂的我
在你了解了以后
其实也没什么
我总是忽冷又忽热
隐藏我的感受
只是怕爱你的心被你看透

猜的没错想得太多
不会有结果
被你看穿了以后
我更无处可躲
我开始后悔不应该太聪明的卖弄
只是怕亲手将我的真心葬送

我猜中你的心

要再一次决定
遥远的距离都是因为太过聪明
我猜中你的心
要再一次决定
缓慢的思绪都是因为太想靠近你

心情不好的时候，我会想一个人去超市。什么都不用多想，focus在该买杨梅还是话梅，巧克力威化还是牛奶曲奇。然后坐下来享受大堆零食。

昨天晚上，我自己去了美廉美。

 

回来的路上，一个人走过黑漆漆的巷子，走过了才发现我竟然没有怕。记得以前每次一个人回来得晚，就会在天桥上给xxx打电话，会在穿过京师广场时给zz打电话，一直胡说到我到寝室楼下。还幼稚觉得这样的话，我如果在路上出了什么事情，至少跟我打电话的那位会第一时间知道，然后来救我。
原来总是那么胆小，那么依赖那一帮好朋友，而现在，我不用再依赖大家，而只是唯一个人，等他让我什么都不怕什么都不担心。结果却是，像今天这样，我真的没有再胆小害怕，只不过是因为一个人，我自己学会了be tough。

 

人总会觉得自己已经有的，不够。

 

呵呵 恩 还是叉掉之前的好了。

总觉得爱情是多么虚无缥缈的东西

没有血缘没有任何关系的两个人，以爱情为筹码，来承诺一生，一世。

虚幻~

Kinda feel uncontrollable regret, doubting all the decisions i've made lately.

 

I shouldn't have accepted things I never asked for;
I shouldn't have dropped chances which everybody envied;

I shouldn't have went away from my friends and then lost myself;

I shouldn't have said those words thus hurt those who really care me;
I shouldn't have hestitated for long and eventually put myself into this dilemma;
I shouldn't have acted like a superwoman and let the other guy think I never need a hug;
I shouldn't have done these, and I shouldn't have done those.
None of my choice I did recently is satisfying, or I can just say I did not made any decision, and then "Bang!" I let eveything just slipped by.

 

This is not like the previous "me", like I just said, I've lost myself.

How could someone easily measure which is the right thing worth to do, and which is not? I've got a huge huge problem figuring out mine. 

 

I love an actor's line in GREY'S ANANOMY, that is, "The pain is there for a reason."
Don't be afaid of the pain, and don't refuse to assume your responsibility.
Some wounds just need much more than quick fix. With some wound, you need to rip of the ribbens, give them fresh air, and leave the time for it, to heal.

 

I've made a decision today, when there is only me myself and my own feelings.

 

外公住进医院，他们本来说只要做手术就会好，一次手术后，外公就可以恢复正常的思维，病也可以痊愈；

我去弄牙，医生说这次做了牙齿，两小时之后我的牙就会变样，我这辈子都不会再有大板牙。

 

一劳永逸，多好听的故事。相信么？相信的举手。反正我不会举。小时候不吃饭，妈妈喂饭时总说，再吃三口就再不让你吃了；初中时跑800米，坚持不住时l总说，很快就到了，这次达标了以后就再也不用考了；高中时彭迪劝我读书总说，考上个好大学你就这辈子也不用再愁了。呵呵，可是结果，...。

 

一劳永逸的事情总是那么诱人，其实那时人总忽略“劳”的过程会很辛苦。就像外公现在，年纪太大手术不能做了。也像我整牙，还会有电钻刺耳的声音和烧猪脚毛一样的臭味。

改变,一点一点的。

 

先是每天要干的事情，
几点起床，几点睡觉，
听什么样的歌，跟什么样的人打交道，
吃什么口味的冰淇淋，穿什么颜色的外套。

 

然后是你的喜好，你的脾气，还有你全部的生活习惯。

 

改变，一点一点的，让人跟着一点一点的往下掉，像跟着凉水一块儿被慢慢煮沸的癞蛤蟆。