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25 November Pancakes I finally finally have a chance to do nothing but talking tonight. It is nice talking to old friends. I think I can be happy again. Actually I think I am much better now. I am good now, as long as I can talk and I will have the pancakes. :D, :D, :D:D:D Actually, the world, it is still the one that I once loved so much. I am happy thinking that god is making me yummy pancakes. or god, just take me away to make me one of those yummy pancakes...:D, :D, :D:D:D 莫名其妙xxx一点都没变，还是一句话就说得我恨不得抱头痛哭。 其实我也一直觉得最近的日子很莫名其妙。在这里一切都好，我可以自己做饭，可以搞定上课，可以跟着师兄师姐开着各种会然后慢慢上道，可以想吃什么买什么，也可以坐着公交想去哪去哪。只是很多时候坐在电脑前，莫名其妙的觉得不踏实。每天每天我都花很多很多的时间发呆，脑子里飞快的转，努力地去找个合适的借口或者理由，让自己对人对事的想法释然一些；但很多时候，我只是天花乱坠的想到无数条让我释然的理由和无数条让我羁绊的理由，然后脑子在这之间拼命挣扎。坐不住的时候，我会起身一个人转去外面走走，转去学校看看，转去超市逛逛，也都于事无补。打发掉了时间，却不代表一切就能过去。莫名其妙。 当xxx跟我说，he could never feel the way a girl feels lonely in Canada的时候，我就恍然大悟了。快乐，生活和未来...我觉得不踏实不是因为我琢磨不清楚这些现在对我的意义，只是因为我有太多一个人的时间来琢磨这些破玩意儿了。 只是因为孤单，前所未有的孤单。 08 November Love is everythingThis is my first time to attend a wedding ever after I got mature enought to understand what is love and what is relationship, since like around my 20.
I was there, from the rehearsal to the real ceremony. I saw the bride and groom walking throught the aisle, linking their arms at the end, holding each other's hand, exchanging their rings, reading their vows and becoming the closest family and support to each other.
I thought i was getting mature and becaming cooler and cooler about the fairy stories, but i am not.
The fairy tales and fantasy all came back at the every moment i saw the smile on the groom's face when he was looking at the bride. I am this sensitive, opinionatedly-crazy-about-fairy-tales, and eager-for-unalterable-mental-support since Day One. Love does mean everything to me, and i probably never gonna get any cooler. Eventually, love is everything. and that's just it.
I didn't get the bouquet, BTW. It was just coming to me, and i definitely got 90% chance to get it. i just give it up and decided not to take it at the last second. i don't wanna be the focus of the party... i dont know what the hell made me thinking about that...i just..i know god would never let me down even without a damn bouquet. and i will just keep my fantasy of the prince and fairy tales in the bottom of my heart, and wait for it to come true someday somehow.
和新郎新娘：
 拍伴郎马屁...
 笑的花枝乱颤的伴郎-_-''
伴娘和牧师：
 03 November It can be so much easieri finally figured out the reason. it can be so much easier if we all refuse to know everything of the others and we all just require partial loyalty. |
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