I saw your hint in your page. I knew all of you are mad about me, I knew that.
I was just trying to minimize the conflicts between you guys and..
I owe you, I knew. But you guys are my best friends, you have the most generous heart for me, you can forgive everything I did, right?
This is really hard for me, when the loved one is isolated from previous best friends. You've been there, you can understand, right?

Starting this monologue is hard, trying to equalize is harder. I did do tons of thinking, about how much I've changed, what I've lost and how much I deserved...I 've thought about it so many times that you can never imagine. After all, no matter how hard it is gonna be, I am still trying here. And I am not going to regret.